Ok, so I don't even know if people are reading this... but I wanted to share my frustration... and if anyone at all can relate... I'd love to hear what advice you may have.
I'm really really fat.
That's just a fact... not being mean, or anything like that... I'm just really fat....
Some of you may know that I've struggled with this pretty much my whole life.. gone back and forth a few times, but mostly, just been fat!
Some of you may also know that I have been trying very hard to change this over the past year/year and a half. Well, I'm tired......
So VERY tired.... I'm tired of eating like a freak.. when everyone else is eating whatever they want pretty much... I am so careful, very rarely cheat... even when I go out... I choose the better choice... yuck! Who wants to do that after all this time... because to be honest... after coming down 70 pounds... I still have another 100 to go at least!
I have only lost 2 lbs. in the past 3 weeks... this after changing trainers.... paying a FORTUNE.... (I mean honestly, by the time I'm done... I will own a good portion of the East Hills 24hr fitness) I workout for an hour EVERY day... it's getting to be very frustrating to not see results...
Before, I was just fat... didn't gain, didn't lose... so why in the world should I continue to torture myself to stay the same? As far as I can figure today.... I should just go back to the old ways... it was a lot easier, and I got the same results...
I guess I might just be having a bad day... but gosh, it sure is hard! Stress from work and everywhere else doesn't help.... I just want to give up!!!
We all know there is no magic pill for this weight problem... but right about now, I sure wish there was! I looked online and it shows that to maintain my weight... I would have to be eating 2300 calories a DAY!!! Holy Cow!! I am at 1200 a day... plus the hour workout.... JUST INSANE!!!!
I'm thinking I really need to get that darn bodybugg to see what is going on.... but who can afford to spend more money on something... when I've already spent so much... anyway... enough about my rant... I'm feeling better now...
I am so grateful for my children and my husband who try to understand and sacrifice themselves so that I can work on this for me. They hardly ever see me, and eat meals from the freezer nearly every day.... except when Victor cooks.... (which is always something GREAT... that of course I can't eat)...
They really are great... and Victor just keeps reminding me that although I may not see it in my clothes.... my health has got to be so much better than it was... and we all know that is important!
Thanks for listening!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Feeling frustrated
Posted by Kate at 9:34 PM
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I'm fat too and I feel your pain! When Devonn and I started dating (only 6 years ago!) I was 120 pounds but then we ate fast food and crap everyday and I just got SO FAT. I go through periods where I want to lose weight so I'll eat healthy and exercise but then I reach a plateau and quit... It doesn't help that dieting is so darn expensive either. But anyway, I think you look FANTASTIC and I know you'll be able to lose more.
I FEEL your pain to. I'm so tried of being FAT my self. I feel thAT I eat healthy and I get FARTER!!! Why is that I don't know. I have be Eat healthy and exercise and I fell like I have done all these for nothing. I went to the Dr. and I wanted to get some diet pill and he told me NO He said that I'm a heathly FAT. I said Heathly and FAT dose not go together I all so get so FRUSTRATED I hate the way I look and I feel like I don't want to go anywhere anymore and I know I have to not be like that but it is so hard not to be. I think that you have done a great job at lossing weight. keep it up and thanks for being my friend love ya Cindy P.S I go to your blog every day I don't alway leave comments but I'n trying to be better at it.
Well, my excuse for weight is just about up.... It has been two months now and I can no longer hide behind being pregnant. ;-)
So, I will be joining you now in this fun quest of weight loss. I need about 50 off.
You are probably just plateauing (is that a word?). Your body has MUCH more lean muscle mass than before and as you continue to work out, you will continue to lose. If you were to quit now, only fat would return and your percentage of lean muscle mass would decrease making it much more difficult to lose.
SO, keep up the great work!! And I will not encourage you to eat pumpkin treats anymore.
Rachel
you are beautiful and your dad and I have seen a huge difference in how you look.. I know your frustrated but hang in there not just for yourself but for those beautiful kids of yours and of course for Victor and the rest of the family. We all want you around for a very long time
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